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▸ My worst reality. Smile is the best lie I can do ;') ... ♬
Monday, December 13, 2010
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I'm so lazy to update my blog yesterday. I have pictures. Maybe later.
Dear Online Diary,
I don't think I can control myself anymore. My family is sarcastic. They use sarcasms to nag me. Bloody how, don't you guys think it's a bad idea? Hell, it's killing me slowly inside. It's hurt. It's awful. Yes, I don't like the way you treat me. I wish I could go far away, far away from you guys.. only with my mum. Every single time, when I am trying to be good, trying not to be myself, I just can't afford to. Truth is, I don't hate my family. Sometimes, your manners can hurt me deeply. If you are in my place, what did you do? Waste your tears? It's not worth it. No matter how many times I cry, they wouldn't listen despite laughing over their ass! It happens last night. I cried so hard.. I was like....... Maybe it's hard for me to take that. Nobody believes me. You know, I start to think.. EVERYBODY will leaves me.. friends.. best friends .. family .. I don't wish it happen to me. Maybe this is a test from God, maybe there's something behind this crap. God planned something for me. I hope it's good one. It is still hurts, when you're absolutely depending on no one.
